A girl with big dreams.

Friday, May 29, 2009

i finally did it!!

well yeah i finally gather up my courage,
and dare to kick out the balls!
im so proud of myself!woohoo!
then manjit say,here you can do at games you dont want.
kay i was tortured by tiffany,faisal and shahruddin.
tiffany hit the ball and it went straight to my legs.
i cried a little.then shahruddin was like.
kena kat ne?ok tak?keeper tak leh lembek tau.
still can make joke sia.
then faisal hit kena my back.
then again shahruddin complained lembek lah kau!
geram dok..
then he hit kena my stomach.
then he again said ape jek ni keeper,
geram tau!!bnyk bunyi sey dia.
haha.my whole body injured.
i just hope megan is ok.
after being hit by the senkang girl,
kecian tau!!
muay thai was fun babe!!
with my dearest hockey peeps who have been with me all this while.
they rock my socks!
updating pictures soon!

Labels: muay thai

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

at computer lab!

:)
i m now at computer lab,
chien liang sitting beside me..
noisy sia he.we talked about exams and all..
haha.
maybe not going school training.
going to national training,
im glad something s is settled,
but he does not have the right to call people name,
ass,he is a coward.
all guys are.
k gtg update again later i think.

Labels: cowards people

the truth hurts,the lies worh.

I can almost see it

That dream I’m dreaming

There’s a voice inside my head sayin

,You’ll never reach it.

Every step I’m taking,

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking but

IGot to keep tryin

Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make

it movetheres always going to be an uphill battle

,Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,

The chances I’m taking

Sometimes they might knock me down but

No I’m not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments

thatI’m going to remember most yeah

Just got to keep going

And I,I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on,

im sorry c girls.we came third because of me,

i should have saved the ball but i diidnt know what happen?

the penalties i wasnt ready.

i think i was afraid to dash out and bang them.

well, yeah i know myself the best.

i cant keep lying that i will always have the chance to be a player.

i know its painful but its the truth.

so im just gonna suck it all up.

and improve on my goal keeping.

who says goalkeeping sucks?

no its not!

without them there will be no one to protect you.

even tough u are the best attacking team in singapore!

k stop,im laughing outside.

inside im hurting!

i still think we should have gone to abetter position!

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

even though Goin' on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again

I pretend I'm okayBut that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And havin' so much to sa

yAnd watchin' you walk away

And never knowin

'What could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

its what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin'

you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' it

It's hard to force that smile

when I see our old friends a

nd I'm alone

Still harder gettin' up,

gettin' dressed,

livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade,

give away all the words that

I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken.

i dontknow why but im starting to hate see you.

you have changed.

i reall y dont know y.

what i know is your good fren____.is a coward.

y must he blame _________.

y must you talk to from the phone and not face to face?

y u blame others?kalau dah suka ape ko nak buat?

asl ko mcm desperate siul!

do you know by doing that you are making it obvious!

and for the third party,

stop doing whatever that make boys linger at you,

or the opposite.k fine i know youre verry preety,,

we cant blame you for that..

k i dont want say much.

i think i might not go to sleep tonight cos it pains my heart damn much!!

Labels: remember today.

Friday, May 22, 2009

kris allen(!)

kris allen menang!!who i love that dude!!
even he,himself did not believe he won!
i agree adam voice quite nice ah,
but too bad.for me,he is quite metalic but a real rockstar
especially the way he pull his voice.
kris,the way he sings is common but unique.
he make his way trough his fans hearts.
i like him singing aint no sunshine&no boundaries
here are pictures of him.

finding kris themes for blog,
cant find so maybe david archuleta will do,
i also like him!!cute sia
today,
at least manjit puji me.
its like finally,
played ok ah,
but training not so fun,
cos had some misunderstandings.
k im getting scared for the 7 aside we must try our best to win!
teck whye boleh!!

second hours so many days

you know what you want

but how long you can wait?

every moment last forever

if you feel you have lost your your way,

what if your chances

are already gone.

started believing that i could bve wrong,

but you give me one

good reason to fidght&never walk away.

here i am still holding on,

evry step you climb another mountain,

evey breathe its harder to belive

you will make it trough the pain,

weather the hurricane

to get to that one thing

when you think the road is going nowhere

just when you almost gave up on your dreams

then take it by the hand and show that you can

there are no boundaries..

you can go higher

you can go deeper

there are no boundaries

above and beneath you

break every rule cause

theres nothing between

you and your dreams..

there are no boundaries....

Labels: no boundaries

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

iwhen i saw you over there,i did not meant to stare.

satu tahun sudah berlalu ,

senyummu ku rindu,

wajahmu ku terbahyang,

aku ingin kan mu sayang.

thats how i end my karangan,

i know its funny haha,

well today as fun,

except for hockey cos i was in no mood to do anything.

well,i think its because i dont have the heart in being goalkeeper.

i think its the time to let out my feelings.

everyone asks me ,

y i agree in being gk?

then i told them ;

even tough i dont want to i have to,

i really want to be player.

but i guess im not good enough.

also,i have this thinking in me always in my mind in training,

well,i will leave this world some day& i dont know when.

so i just do wat everyone ask me to do.

even if i dont like to.

they replied but wont you ever regret it?

i said,yes i always did,

i miss touching my hockey stick and dribbling down the hockey pitch.

but i do not have a choice i am hust surrending myself to my fate.

well,like coach said he knows the best for me.

that is why i trained as keeper even tough my heart is not in it.

but its too late to say anything now.

for the sake of cdiv i will try to do everything i can.

today

well hell ya i failed my math.

i passed my el,hist,fnn.

dats all i have so far for my papers.

i seriously think i can do better for every subjects.,

today hockey had me badly

especially in goalkeeping,

i was really in no mood.

you said must respect players,

how we goalkeepers respect you

when you dont..

i was really angry with that sentence you said.

tommoro,

apit ajak lepak so yea maybe im going

long time never lepak with them.

been busy with hockey.

I never gone with the wind

Just let it flow

let it take me where it wants to go

till you open the door

theres so much morei never seen it before

i was tryin to flybut i couldnt find wings

but you came along and you changed everything

you lift my feet off the ground

you spin me aroundyou make me crazier

feels like im falling

and i'm lost in your eyes

you make me crazier

hah yeah u made me crazier.

When I saw you over there

I didn't mean to stare but my mind was everywhere

I wanna know you

You smile and never shout

You stand out in the crowd

You make the best of every situation

Correct me if I'm wrong

You're fragile and you're strong

A beautiful and perfect combination..

well you really are and im trying to forget bout u.

even tough i cant..

Labels: trying my best (waiting for meera to update)

Saturday, May 16, 2009

just so you know..

im sick!!
my throat is getting worst.
well,today we had training,and game.
tomorro game.
nasib monday takde training.
boleh mampos tau.
but our tournament is coming.
so im willing..

i think its time to forget him,

its no use waiting for him.

you pushin me away.

every last word,

pushing me away,

every single thing you say.

i try to solve it,but i guess its too late.

telling you the truth,making me realise its all to late.

even if you dont care just tell straight to my face..

just tell me the truth,

im getting confused.

these walls are falling and i need you.

more than you know.

i think im letting you go.

broken hearts and restless nights.

helps to make this pain go away.

even though you got me going crazy.

but it has to stop.

Labels: pushin me away..

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

have faith,restart.

hey people sorry for not updating my blog..

simply no time.

im gonna rush this blog cos i have that stupid exam later on.

well,lets start with mothers day..

went to chalet with the submini family

it was gerek ..

well we were asked to wait for about 15 mins while they go take the keys.

so i took some pictures outside the chalet..

my gerek kakak sedare..she rocks!!

well finally they got the key.let me tell you,

actually the chalet was somesort of bunglow

cos they got 2 balcony,1 big garden and double storey.

then my little cousins came..they are cuter now!

cute arent they?well,i really had fun there despite the incident haappen

you know something?i found out that the chalet was sort of "haunted"

there is a woman who commit suicide.scary huh?

sorry gals,i did not attend hockey taraining on monday.

wednesday

hockey training was quite tiring,but i managed it.

like finally i did not give up my running.

training was fun for me.

today,

planned to go out with 2e but did not.

because of some last minutes stuffs.

so im trying to make my blog alive again.

trying to make blogskins..

well,i think this is all wanna watch lotus lantern..

i wanna meet jonas brothers and maybe zac efron(!)

Labels: Mierakay Joedy

Saturday, May 9, 2009

is this me?

when i see you on the road,

i see only you in the glances.

one day you made my heart lost itself,

i saw you,i desired you.

i searched for you and i found you.

if you say yes or no..

april has past and my frens keep asking,

when you are gonna tell him?

i said never gonna happen!

i can guarantee he will never like me back,that is why.

buat malujek,

many girls know him,haiyo .

well important exams are over,like finally.

friday

well i wanna say sorry to syai cos she wanted to,

spend time with me and fadilah .

but we planned to go to fareast,

k really i couldnt recognize myself k blabla.

17 again must watch!!

im nervous for math and history.

today got trainging,it was fun but my blisters spoiled it.

but it was fun tough..

k lah dats all wanna watch manja lara

Labels: how long?

Monday, May 4, 2009

joe is cute!!

english paper was ok,
i slept halfway trough.ok i know it was terrible but i was sleepy ok?
luckily the invigilator (forgotten her name).wake me up.
aftert the exams meera kecyk told me about the rumors..
hey its not true!!dumbass.whoever started it please stop it!!
dumb dumb ass!!!argh!!
well,not updating much im watching jonas videos.
muahahaha they are damn cute and fuuny in the shows..
i love them!!
well,tommoro history exam.
after a FEW videos must go and study.
need to pass every subjects meera..

Labels: stop the rumours asshole

Saturday, May 2, 2009

dont give up on love,hold on

sorry,bout those few days..
did not update trying my best not to keep my blog dead..
well,nervous about midyear,cause im not really into studying.
haha,i havent even start my art researches..
and i stil, can laugh ass.
well,i gotten the lovebug again.think so..
im trying to forget him ok!
ok wani found out who i like..
i should delete that stupid photo in my siemens phone!
what to do?
friday
went to study with mstan,fadilah,lenny,hazwani.
studied maths.
we are asked to study at a different place.
so we went to the foodcourt.
hidayat,umar,afiq and syafiq came..
went to buy art things at popular.
planned to watch movie but cancelled as wani and hidayat got no money.
so we change to after exams..
then all went home.
dayat and me planned to go home but umar have to wait for his mum at lot.so i stayed with him cos go home also got nothing to do.
went around to look for mothers day presents.
saw,syapeeqa,atiqah twaddley,brandon,fatin.
then i was tired so went home..around 6++.
saturday
went swimming,and i regretted cos my face was spoiled,
the clorox they used are dangerous sia.
went home quicly scrub my whole body out.
study for a while then watch just my luck..
saw jingyi and ikashy.
today.
plan to finish my art research and study english or maybe maths,
will update again at night maybe?

when you love someone,

and they break your heart,

do not give up on love,

have faith restart,

just holdon..

Labels: you are the reason i breath

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