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Monday, March 28, 2011
random post
10th grade As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. 11th grade The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Senior year The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Graduation Day A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. A Few Years Later Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Funeral Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.Labels: sweet rite? Sunday, January 16, 2011
sincerely,
![]() Life is full of unexpected things, and yes, we should welcome it as much a we dont want to. this post is to clear everything thats been happening this 3days. yes,it was wrong for me to walk off like that, it was wrong for me to ask can i go home, it was wrong in everyway for me to say those stuffs. but you guys have to understand how im feeling, to see each and every members of your batch got choose and you dont, it was hurtful to see your juniors got selected instead of you, it was even hurtful when your junior was the one who say stuffs that you dont even want to hear, well i guess this is life, we just gotta take each and every comment of it and turn it into a certain strength in life to do better. i know that you guys might talk things out, when i headed home earlier. positive or negative only you guys knows. truthfully, its kind of making me worried. i dont even know if you guys are angry/dissapointed and stuffs with me? so i just wanna say im sorry. you guys mean a lot to me, and you guys should know why, each and everyone of you were there when i need help, when i need a shoulder, when i need a listening ear, most importantly, a friend who i can trust. each and everyone of you were special in each different ways, and i love the differences . especially my soulsister, you know who you are. i treasure you guys, will things change ? will we fall apart? i dont know, cause the anwers lies tomorow, we'll see. and this post was typed straight from my heart, and ofcourse bring back the gold medal for floorball, although im not able to bring that back home, im still able to see it. and im sincere about this. so i hope things will not change and we will still be kilats. and i will try my very best to change for the better. the ones i treasure the most.![]() Labels: the best i ever had. Thursday, January 13, 2011
hope is what pushing me through.
![]() hey 2011, its an awesome start. one year older, one year wiser. yeah this is what my teacher told me, i will not fool around this year, i will focus on my studies, i will do well in my nlevels. i promise myself i shall go to sec 5, and i promise i will do it and i will. so far first week of school i could copee, did not sleep in class. yeah i guees shall keep up with this enthusiasm, well, im trying to not type singlish in my blog, to cultivate good english in me. i did not went to school on wednesday, and im not going tomorrow too. i really hope nothing is wrong with me, tomorrow is also the selections and im worried, cause obviously i want to be choosen, i did my best in training although is not that good, i really hope i get choosen, cause now it seems thats all i want, happy birtday dalya,to those who know, i hope u keep it a secret, i really hope things will get better, if not then i will just leave everything to allah, allah will handle, but to my close friends if anything happens, which i hope will not :( just keep only one photo of me in the room of yours, cause thats enough for me. i really hope will be fine. Labels: rocketeer Sunday, January 2, 2011
a new chapter closes
a new year begins, a chapter ends a new chapter of our life starts, new resolutions,goals,dreams to achieve. 2010 has been a fruitful j0urney, tears,laughter,lessons,love,hate. and i ended the year with an awesome party, with my love ones, singleladies<3 we rocked that party, haha! thanks to class 95fm :) so these are the pics of awesome time ,events, people, that came and happened in my life . not to mention bdiv hockey champion and fb second ^^ i cant find the pics. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Labels: a new story opens Sunday, December 19, 2010
FUNKY FESS ARE AWESOME! ^^
![]() ![]() hey people, i am soo hungry and i got nothing to do, so while waiting for my food to come, shall update, this week has been crazy, lots of stuffs have been going on. firstly, faizal isa is away on, we made a goodbye party for him. and celebrated farhan shah's birthday. yea, was choosen for u21 a team. i know this means i have to work harder. yes, i will not make coach regret of choosing me. celebrated mimie's birthday ytd, it was aweessooommeee!!! invited funky nuts. suppeerrdupper cute ^^ hahah! had loads of fun playing beach games. it was amazing. then went to orchard planned to see him with his santa costume, in the end we were late, nvm took picture with him.:) oh ya, my girls are at kl right now. only me,mia and syai is at singapore. hope they did well in the games, and doing good there. i kinda miss them :) 26 gonna have funkyfess and funky nuts outing:) i cant wait.. hmm what should i where? kay bye peeps. Labels: american malay :) |
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